Suffice to say, I have been going crazy getting back into the swing of school (still hasn't happened), working at Legal Aid (still there), searching for a job (still unemployed), and fighting the crazy weather here (still icy/snowy outside!).
Still.
That's a good way to sum up how I'm feeling. Like I'm standing still, stuck until I figure out the job situation. Each thing on my mind is linked and can't seem to progress until the other things are figured out: Where will I take the bar exam? Where will I get a job? Will things work out with S.? Will I finally find an apartment that I love? Will I...?????? The questions never end.
And yet, amazingly, I am a stark raving HAPPY. Even though I am staring into the face of some MAJOR life decisions, nothing seems to shake me so much I can't bounce back from it in a few hours. For example, I was freaking out earlier this afternoon about the job situation, scrambling all over the internet looking for opportunities. As soon as I walked away from my computer, I forgot my stress and was just happy to be running errands, making dinner, and cuddling with Lucy-dog. I can't seem to stop the happiness, even when everything else is up in the air.
Maybe this is a lesson in patience for me, which is a virtue I absolutely, 100% do NOT possess. Maybe it's just a sign of the economy. Maybe it's a quarter-life stage rite of passage. Maybe it's part of my fate. At the least, it's a moment for me to catch my breath before the real rat-race of finals, graduation, taking the bar, and working.
Heck, I'm just along for the ride. :)
2 comments:
Yay a new post! You have no idea how happy this makes me. I'm glad that you are happy, even with so many up in the air things. Things usually have a way of working themselves out when they are supposed to.
Dogs make life so much better, its hard to be stressed out when you have a pet. :-)
Going alone for the ride is the best part.
Having a base position of happiness makes all this stress easier to deal with. And, yeah, major life decisions are stressful, but they can also be FUN. I mean, you get to decide what to DO! And you have so many options! It's so cool.
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